I didn't like seeing "fuck" at the top of the blog. The great news is that feelings and behaviors can change in an instant, and often, when behavior changes, feelings follow along.
Time to stop wallowing and start accepting. And no more junk food. Later I'll post Krista at Stumptuous's writing on giving up sugar. It's genius! But I need to be at a 4:30 appt. Au revior for now!
3 comments:
I'm glad you chose to take the decision you did.
It clearly can be easier for some, to fall prey to old habits or behaviour / thought patterns, but there is a certain amount of courage in admitting to it :-).
There's no shame in ever admitting you failed in some way, the expectations you set for yourself.
It's potentially a learning curve and not a straightforward or easy one, because however long someone has tried to live like they do, things still happen, that can make the individual question their approach or indeed themselves.
So I do feel a small sense of pride, in your choosing to admit what you did and how you felt about it.
I hope you can feel a bit of pride in this choice too, because I think you're entitled to and however much you may have thought you had old patterns under control, you know now that not everything is as cut and dried as you might have thought, but it also serves to remind that you are human and that is okay too :-).
Your documenting of what almost looked liked mindless, I don't care eating habits, doesn't diminish the person you are, because you shouldn't feel forced to have to live to a certain standard you set for yourself and then be expect yourself to uphold that at all cost.
The main thing is you recognising what you did and taking steps to correct it.
You know what you are capable of and how you are able to live and I know you can continue to do that and as always, I wish you well doing what you know is best for you :-).
You are still a wise head on young shoulders Leslie. You did not do anything stupid here, because you understood it and rationalised it, then took action.
I still believe that pride can come from these admissions and pride is a deserving emotion for you to feel :-).
Keep on believing in yourself and your physical, emotional and mental abilities, because you are often a superb example of being human, a Lady and just a general rolemodel to others and you are a person that puts the extra in ordinary and to anyone who cares to notice, it will always mean a great deal.
Chin up Leslie, keep smiling and best wishes.
You're human and that is a really wonderful part of your personality and character. It might not be perfect, but it's valuable none the less and THANK YOU for being so.
:-) :-).
Matt
I'm playing blog catch up right now... I feel for you! Yikes. I also went running after a lady ran over my foot with her shopping cart at Costco. Having a broken anything sucks. I hope you're not too limited like I was. Are you wearing the boot? Hang in there. It will get better and you'll be back at it soon.
Thanks friends! Toe is healing. No boot, surprisingly. I'm walk/running The Giant Race in San Francisco tomorrow, and all is well.
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