First, if everyone was nearby, we'd need to do a group hug. THANK YOU!!! (If I could make the thank you blink or do flips of appreciation, you know it would be doing just that!)
Actually yesterday was tough, but for good reasons. Had first counseling appointment. (Don't worry -- this isn't going to turn into a therapy weblog, but I need to give the rest of the story.) Left the appointment feeling drained and not all that great. My girlfriend told me that starting counseling is like stirring up all the crap that's at the bottom of a lake -- you always knew there was stuff there, but it's easier in the short-term to just swim in the semi-murky water. But I left the appointment determined to do some things I'd wanted to do all week (pick up two pre-anniversary sale purchases from Nordstrom, and hit Target for some supplies for this weekend's camping trip). Didn't go well. Took THIRTY MINUTES to locate two packages, and in one case, the clerk came back and asked "Now what was your name again?" giving me further evidence that I am, indeed, invisible. (That's how I've been feeling a lot these days.) But then in a happy surprise, my friend Jenny was at Nordstrom too. This is REAL MARATHON Jenny who, sadly, has been sidelined with an uncooperative ankle for nearly a year. But what a treat to run into her.
In another good turn of events, I scheduled my call with Tony for 6:00 this morning (he thought that was too early, but I am highly motivated). So I was up at 5:00 and on the phone at 6:00. There's a lot of overlap between what counselor is saying and what Tony's saying, and that congruence feels good, like I'm on the right track. And today instead of feeling like an unappreciated, invisible yard duty, I decided to take my kids OUT OF THE HOUSE and it was good. It was not easy getting out. But we did 3 errands that needed doing, then had lunch together, and then watched the rest of a charming movie, "My Date With Drew." (It's quirky and quite hopeful and makes you laugh.)
So tonight I'm training two new clients for the first time (a mother and daughter), and then we're getting ready for a weekend camping trip. And then first thing Monday I'm starting the DreamBodies program. Am I nervous? You betcha! But we are going on a work-ish trip to Maui (just me & Tim) in five short weeks, so the timing is perfect for something that produces results FAST. (Remind me that I said that if I start bitching, ok?)
One final thing: last night there was a ladybug on the inside of my car window. As we all should know (and Katie knows for sure) just seeing a ladybug is good luck. But having one land on you or be in your personal space is even better. Yep, things are definitely looking up!