Thursday, July 26, 2007

Things are looking up

First, if everyone was nearby, we'd need to do a group hug. THANK YOU!!! (If I could make the thank you blink or do flips of appreciation, you know it would be doing just that!)

Actually yesterday was tough, but for good reasons. Had first counseling appointment. (Don't worry -- this isn't going to turn into a therapy weblog, but I need to give the rest of the story.) Left the appointment feeling drained and not all that great. My girlfriend told me that starting counseling is like stirring up all the crap that's at the bottom of a lake -- you always knew there was stuff there, but it's easier in the short-term to just swim in the semi-murky water. But I left the appointment determined to do some things I'd wanted to do all week (pick up two pre-anniversary sale purchases from Nordstrom, and hit Target for some supplies for this weekend's camping trip). Didn't go well. Took THIRTY MINUTES to locate two packages, and in one case, the clerk came back and asked "Now what was your name again?" giving me further evidence that I am, indeed, invisible. (That's how I've been feeling a lot these days.) But then in a happy surprise, my friend Jenny was at Nordstrom too. This is REAL MARATHON Jenny who, sadly, has been sidelined with an uncooperative ankle for nearly a year. But what a treat to run into her.

In another good turn of events, I scheduled my call with Tony for 6:00 this morning (he thought that was too early, but I am highly motivated). So I was up at 5:00 and on the phone at 6:00. There's a lot of overlap between what counselor is saying and what Tony's saying, and that congruence feels good, like I'm on the right track. And today instead of feeling like an unappreciated, invisible yard duty, I decided to take my kids OUT OF THE HOUSE and it was good. It was not easy getting out. But we did 3 errands that needed doing, then had lunch together, and then watched the rest of a charming movie, "My Date With Drew." (It's quirky and quite hopeful and makes you laugh.)

So tonight I'm training two new clients for the first time (a mother and daughter), and then we're getting ready for a weekend camping trip. And then first thing Monday I'm starting the DreamBodies program. Am I nervous? You betcha! But we are going on a work-ish trip to Maui (just me & Tim) in five short weeks, so the timing is perfect for something that produces results FAST. (Remind me that I said that if I start bitching, ok?)

One final thing: last night there was a ladybug on the inside of my car window. As we all should know (and Katie knows for sure) just seeing a ladybug is good luck. But having one land on you or be in your personal space is even better. Yep, things are definitely looking up!

11 comments:

Colette said...

((HUGS)) for you, Leslie!

I am so happy that things are looking up for you. Yes, be prepared for that roller coaster of emotions when going through the counseling. Been there years ago and it helped big time! Just do the activities they tell you to do and before you know it, you'll walk in the room one day and know without a doubt that you are done...healed. I did and it was just the most bitter sweet feeling I've ever had. Took me a full year, but she was awesome.

Believe me, you are never invisible! Sometimes people just get so caught up in what they are doing, they forget to give that personal touch/attention. I know it is not you. You are a beautiful woman who just glows from the inside out! When I see you, I can feel your energy comeing through. I only wish that you could see that for yourself. You will soon...I know it ;)

Have a super time camping!
Always know that you have a friend close by.

Brit-Man said...

Leslie, just keep being yourself.

You don't ever need to be someone else. Being yourself is the best, brightest, and most valuable way to be :-) :-).

Matt

Eileen said...

Invisible? Hello...the Naked Cowboy sure seemed to like you!

Tony at 6 a.m. -- that's highly motivated for sure.

I'm having my own semi-meltdown over here, but working on improving things too...I will keep an eye out for the ladybugs.

So what did the therapist have to say about summer? I bet LOTS of moms go through a funky time about this time and then feel guilty about it. I know I did last year....

I'll keep an eye out for ladybugs....

Stef said...

=)

KatieFeldmom said...

YAY for the LADYBUG!!! Funny you thought of me as I was probably thinking of you and how you taught me to do squats .... they finally clicked this past workout and my knee didn't turn in like it did in your workout room. You said to keep working on it and I did and now I can do them. Thanks!!!

Evelyne said...

Things ARE looking up, I can feel it. So glad you got to talk to Tony, I'm so excited for you!

Laurie said...

Dontcha just love it when a plan comes together! Have fun on Monday! Is Tony going to give you Kettleball stuff to do?

KatieFeldmom said...

You've been nominated for a Rockin' Girl Blogger award. See my blog for details. And remember, you ROCK!!!

Irene said...

Glad things are looking up!


*HUGS*

Kettlebell Lady said...

What is DreamBodies?

Tracy said...

Leslie...

Thinking of you,

Tracy