Monday, January 26, 2009

Boot Camp, Day 1

Grade for the day: B. (That's a grade on my behavior, not on my circumstances.)

Day started tough. Was up for a couple of hours in the middle of the night -- nightmares again. :( So I started the day groggy and irritable. But I dug in to all the tasks that have been neglected here (laundry, organization, budget stuff, errands) and worked on those for 5 hours. Tried to keep a positive frame of mind in the process.

In the afternoon I got hungry and ate a bunch of Dots and Twizzlers (big growed-up girl that I am!). But I also had an Amy's frozen Indian meal for lunch.

Decided to run 10. Started running. Running is HARD -- considered just turning around and going back home. But I ran a slow, steady 10. Sometimes you just do what you've gotta do, right?

Right now Tim's visiting my dad at the care facility. I thought he was going to call me about 30 minutes ago, so I've called him twice, and he's not answering his phone. This has me worried -- all sorts of scenarios about my dad falling or having a heart attack or something are playing through my head. But I'm working on dinner (frozen thin-crust pizzas from Costco, killer salad) and keeping my fingers crossed.

(Note -- Tim just walked in the door, so I guess all is well!)


Jennifer said...

I've found that really sitting down and thinking about why I'm dreaming what I'm dreaming helps slow the nightmares. Someone once told me to think of my dreams as parables from a wise old Buddhist monk. Thinking of them this way helps you understand a little bit of what your psyche is trying to deal with. By setting aside time to deal with them--even a little--you acknowledge your issues and allow your subconscious to begin to process and move past them. At least that's been my experience here lately.
I hope you sleep better tonight.

Julianne said...

Sounds like you still have a lot going on right now... I like what Jennifer said above, though.

And yay for 10 miles! Even if you wanted to turn around. I'm glad you stuck it through!

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Diana said...

A bad day of running still beats a good day at work!
Hang in there!