Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Day 3

Day 2's grade was a C-. On the positive side, I helped my mom, visited my dad, and ran 7 miles. On the negative side, I canceled a client's training session because I just couldn't shift from one mode to the other. (She's getting a free session on Friday to make up for my flakiness.)

Today probably gets an A- or a B+. I will have trained 5 clients today. I did P90X arms and shoulders which felt great. Wanted to run, but I've gone 17 miles in the past 2 days, and I had paperwork for my parents and for our family building up, so opted for some desk time to get caught up.

So why the A- or B+? Because I CAN'T SEEM TO STOP EATING! Yeah, just one of those "I am always hungry" days. I know they don't last, but when you're prowling the pantry, it's easy to feel scared that you'll never be able to stop eating, and none of your clothes will fit, and on and on and on.

(Yeah, I'm eating my second Cadbury Creme Egg as I type this. Life's too short to eat yucky treats, right?)

Tomorrow I'll be at my parents house most of the day. I'll be bathing my mom (we've got this bath thing down to a science now), grocery shopping, and prepping her breakfast and lunch. And I'll be getting my dad's room ready because HE'S COMING HOME ON FRIDAY!!! My hope is that both of their lives will be better as a result of this tough time.


Irene said...

I hope the transition home goes well for your dad!

By the way, I'm having an "I'm hungry" year... I can relate!


Jawsome said...

Hi Leslie -

I've been reading your blog for a while now, and I want you to know how inspiring it is for me. My grandmother recently passed away, and I can relate to the challenge of getting households in order and still trying to find time for family as well as (gasp!) yourself. To put things in perspective, today I ate an entire package of Milano cookies. The whole thing. And you know what? I'm glad. Because sometimes taking care of yourself (emotionally) is what's most important. I hope your next days will be better.

Jennifer said...

Jawsome...thank you and Leslie both for your honesty. You remind me that I am human--and normal (whatever that is).
Leslie, I know how hard this time is for you, emotionally, physically, spiritually, etc, and I think a lot about this stage of life where we become our parents' caretakers. It's such an odd turn of events, one that I have quite a bit of difficulty wrapping my brain around. Be sure to continue to take care of yourself in the process. So far, it looks like you're doing pretty well with that, but keep it up. Thanks for the updates, too. When things are hard, we worry when you're gone a while.
BTW, how are your daily grades assigned? Is this bootcamp a workbook or an in-person class?

Jacey said...

As someone who knows all too well the stress of caring for a parent, all I can say is this - ask for help.

There is no way you can continue to do your "normal" load of stuff PLUS take on the extra responsibility without totally burning yourself out.

It's hard. But I know you are strong and you can do it. Don't juggle the balls. Hand a few of them to someone else.

kch said...

That's great news about your dad!

And, you're so right about the Cadbury Creme Eggs. I'm going to have to find some, I haven't had one in a while.

Congrats on sticking with your workouts in the face of all that's been going on w/ you and your parents. You're doing great!

tfh said...

I hope your life will be better too as a result of this tough time. May today become an A.

Colette said...

It is okay to eat for comfort at times like these! It's not like you're not exercising, so you are burning the stuff off as you pop it into your mouth ;) I know this past week with stress I've been hitting the pantry a bit more myself. I had a bowl of cereal one night, then got up and poured another one (Rob looked at me and asked if I was hungy haha). I don't care though.

I'm so glad your dad will be home Friday (tomorrow) and I hope things start to calm down in your life. Tough times make us stronger, and you my friend are one strong person.