Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Starting Day 2

Slept better. Woke up scared. What am I afraid of? Integrating my two lives -- caring for parents with caring for family. I can do one or the other, but this is my first week of doing both. (The all or nothing girl inside LOVES extremes, and struggles with balance.) What's the solution? Put one foot in front of the other and do the next right thing, I guess.

Today I'll be at my parents house again. Breakfast for mom. Organize. Will be seeing if my mom can get her own lunch out of the fridge -- sounds small, but it's a big thing, or it will be a big thing if she can do it.

To create some physical balance, I'm back to doing weights at night. Last night I used some 15 lb dumbbells to do chest press and alternating chest press, overhead presses, "heavy pants" (a la Tony Horton of P90X), bicep curls, and overhead tricep extensions. Bodybuilders would not respect my little workout, but I'm happy with my 2 to 3 sets of 13 reps (why 13? Cuz it's my favorite number!) in front of the TV.


Julianne said...

Oh Leslie... Sounds like you're still dealing with so much stuff! I think it's great that you're squeezing weight lifting... at night! Hang in there!! *hugs*

Ultra Princess said...

Getting some exercise in will help you keep your sanity. Don't forget about yourself!!!!! If you don't take care of yourself then you won't be able to take care of others. I know... easier said than done.

I will send you lots of positive energy to help you get through this difficult time.

Hang tough,

Brit-Man said...

You just need to get used ot a new system, or way of doing things. It's nothing to worry about I'm sure, and you ARE someone that CAN do it, so no worries okay and just keep believing in yourself, and trusting in your own human qualities and abilities, and you won't fail.

Take care and best wishes :-) :-).


Irene said...

Cut yourself some slack.

You're in hyper-mom mode, worrying about everything and everyone. Change always adds to the stress, even though you try not to let your family see it. I'd be having nightmares, too.

Just take a deep breath and exhale.

Jo Lynn said...

You're getting some of your Leslie back! ;)