Friday, February 06, 2009

Melange



"Melange" is French for mixture, and that's what I'm about to create -- a mixture with no rhyme or reason except that these are the thoughts that have been passing through my head.
  • When you have NOTHING going on over the weekend, every cashier asks "So do you have any fun plans for the weekend?" Today as I was running errands (Vitamin Shoppe, Nordstrom, Buckle, Nugget Market, Sports Chalet) not one single person asked what I was doing, so I couldn't tell anyone. But in case you've forgotten, I'll tell you...
  • I'm running 39.3 miles tomorrow! I know I signed up for a 50K (31 miles) but I want to do just a little bit more. So the plan is to run 39.3 (a marathon plus a half marathon). I'll be starting at 8:30 and finishing up by 3:00 or 3:30, I think. (As I've never done this, that's just an educated guess based on an 11 minute mile pace.)
  • Running almost 40 miles doesn't seem like that big of a deal when the people I most want to be like when I grow up (Catra!) regularly run 100 miles. But when I step back and consider actually running for 6 or 7 hours, it strikes me that even though it's not 100 miles it's still a big deal! Right?!
  • I'm starting to get a little of ME back. For a while there, it really felt like I was disappearing under a crushing workload and too little sleep. But as my parents situation gets more manageable, I can feel my sense of humor and optimism start returning. And I feel like once again, I can breathe deeply.
  • Will I EVER feel thin? Probably not. I haven't been weighing myself, but my pants are all really loose, even the ones that I can only wear when I'm at my lightest. So I weighed myself this afternoon and the scale said 135.5. That makes me thin, as I've been carb loading for two days and not exercising, and afternoon weight is always heavier than morning weight, right? So I go into Abercrombie (I have a gift card I need to use) and try on a sweatshirt in a medium. It's too tight. So now I'm fat. And I buy nothing. Then I go to Sports Chalet to get a long sleeve shirt for tomorrow. I try on an Adidas medium. It fits just fine. But I'm still fat because the small is too tight, and if I'm not small, then I'm huge, right? (Please tell there's someone who can relate to this kind of thinking!!!)
  • The Chicken-less Chicken was wonderful! Texture was so much like how I remember chicken (I haven't eaten it in over 2 years) that I double checked the label.
  • One week from today Tim and I will be in Maui and I will be swimming in the warm Pacific Ocean!!! And one of the days we're there, we're taking a ferry to an island off the coast of Maui where Tim will be golfing and I'll be running for a couple of hours. I can't wait!

8 comments:

aron said...

i can hear the positive leslie coming back :) YAYYY! glad you are starting to feel better.

GOOD LUCK tomorrow! you are amazing and will do amazing!

ohhh maui my fav place ever :)

aron said...

oh and you are definitely NOT fat!!!

kara said...

That's a really long run! WOW
Look forward to your report : )

KatieFeldmom said...

There's a store in Old Folsom called Melange and I always think of you when I walk by on my lunch.

Have a great time on your 50K + !!!!!!!!!

Glad to read that things are somewhat settling down for you.

jawsome said...

I can't believe you're running 39 miles tomorrow! That is so awesome. I feel you in terms of weight and trying on clothes. Remember that muscle weighs more than fat and you are in phenomenal shape! To put things in perspective (I'm a therapist by training, it's what I do!), I measured myself this morning. In the last 2 months, I have lost no inches off my waist, hips or thighs. Instead, I've lost three inches off my bust. Sometimes, life is not fair! Good luck tomorrow! I'll think of you running 39 miles during my 8 mile jaunt!

Irene said...

Leslie, sizes are so whacked! You are in the best shape of your life. Look at everything you're doing. You got a BQ!

I'll be thinking about you. Best wishes! I'm looking forward to your race report!

Jennifer said...

OMG! I am so glad to hear that someone else has those insano moments over completely nonsense numbers/sizes! My husband keeps telling me I'm a lunatic.

I know you'll do wonderfully today and have a phenomenal time, but I just cant wait to hear about it all.

I'm so glad to hear the change in your "voice" that has begun to come about.

Much love!

Anne said...

Good luck to you today! Stay strong, mentally as well as physically, and make sure you take in enough calories on the course while you can. That is an ultra runner's biggest concern -- much more so than when you just do a regular ol' marathon.

And the others are correct, not to mention Abercrombie's closed are sized smaller than usual. That's why I love The Gap -- they were smart and sized in the opposite direction so women take a smaller size!