I HATE depression! This morning I woke up with my own personal rain cloud, which happens a lot, and there's NO REASON FOR IT! I feel like Pig Pen from Peanuts with his perpetual dust cloud, and even though that's a cute way to describe it, it's a sucky way to live, when you have no idea when the rain cloud will come, or how long it will last, or how to make it go away!
Yesterday I'd decided I would go running this morning. And I even did laundry last night so my favorite pair of shorts would be clean and ready to go. But this morning with how I felt, it was hard to get myself out the door. But I went out of -- what made me do it? Knowing that running never makes things worse, but knowing that breaking promises to myself feels icky -- that's what made me go. So I was about 15 minutes into the run, when the song "Family Reunion" by Rhymz Suhreal came on. The song made me think about running on the beach in Florida. And that made me think about skipping. So I started skipping, which if you've never tried it, you should. It's hard and fun! So I skipped, then ran, then skipped, then ran, and as I was doing it, I realized that I was smiling and happy. And I started thinking about all the things I could do with my life, and I felt HOPEFUL and that felt FANTASTIC.
So I think I need to start being a morning exerciser. I've always known that exercise helped to regulate my moods, but when I consider what happened today, I think exercise can also help to set the tone for my entire day!