Wednesday, May 14, 2008

Time to try something new

Next week is my last week of boxing camp, after 5 months of hitting the heavy bag. I'm feeling a little sad, but I think it's the right decision. In the summertime, we stay up late. And I can't find a way to make that make sense when I get up at 4:45 for boxing. So I'm taking a break for the summer, and returning to boxing in the fall.

Usually when we hit the heavy bag, I pretend that I'm hitting depression. But today I noticed that I wasn't hitting depression because I don't feel depressed. Something I'm doing is working, because I'm really feeling balanced and happy. Possible reasons?

1. Cell regeneration -- I'm still getting one treatment a week and I think it's making a huge difference. (Wish there was a website I could point you to for more info!)

2. Green smoothies -- I'll write more over on my other blog, but the short version is that I've found what I've always been looking for: fresh, fast, healthy convenience food that I make myself!

3. Standing up for myself -- I'm feeling stronger than I've ever felt before and it feels like I've found my voice. So if something's not working for me, I say so. Or if I'm angry, I speak up. And if I want something, I can say it. After many years of trying not to be a bother or be in the way, this way of expressing myself is foreign and feels wonderful.

4 comments:

Colette said...

I can not tell you how happy I am for you! You are in such a great place both in mind and spirit. How wonderful that must feel!
I think you are making the right decision about taking a break from the boxing. Great that you are learning to stand up for yourself. I think it comes with age for most of us. I'm learning slowly, but in time I will be there too. I'm proud of you for that ;)

Have a great day!!!

Anthony C said...

its probably just hitting things that makes you feel better :)
it works for me- hence getting back into a gym where I get to hit people and get hit.

In all honesty its probably all of that put together that's working for you and I am glad it is. Keep it up!

Brit-Man said...

You don't specifically need ot use bag, as long as you've got a mirror, why not just do Shadow boxing instead?

You can always pretend the person in the mirror is another version or alter ego of yourself if that helps.

You just need to keep pushing hard and doing what you feel is best for you.

GOOD LUCK!!!

:-) :-).

Kristen's Raw said...

I love Green Smoothies!

Sad about your boxing, but it'll make you love it even more when you get back to it :)

Cheers!