Thursday, October 05, 2006

Insecurity attack

This morning I was confident and enthusiastic and ready for anything. Then I went shopping. What is it about shopping that reduces me to such an insecure child? I was looking for a dress to wear for our anniversary (17 years on Saturday, and we're celebrating with a weekend in San Francisco, sans children!). There were several possibilities, and I actually ended up buying something really cute, with some sexy black boots to wear with it. But I felt sad and lonely and insecure the entire time. Isn't shopping supposed to be fun?

I really am looking forward to celebrating our anniversary. When we were married, Tim was a huge SF Giants fan. In fact, we rented a TV for our room in Jamaica on our honeymoon so we could watch the playoffs. And we were trying to fly into San Francisco the night of the huge earthquake in 1989. I say this to underscore how important the Giants used to be to Tim. Until they broke his heart by ALMOST going to the World Series (or something else awful like that -- I'm not sure of the event, but I do know whatever it was, that event along with the player's strike years ago, sucked all of Tim's love of baseball away).

ANYWAY, because of love of baseball, we kind of never did anything for our anniversary, cuz early October is a critical time in a fan's life, right? Well, this year we're doing it differently, and I'm so excited! We're staying at The Omni, which Tim says is really nice. And we're having dinner at Boulevard, a hot restaurant according to my girlfriend. (I made reservations 3 weeks ago, and was able to get a table at 9:15 -- the only time they had open -- so others must like the place too!)

Ok, now I'm talking myself into a little excitement. It is a happy thing to have a fun dress and sexy boots and to go away with the man you love. And it's an even happier thing to love the same man (and have him love you back!) after 17 years of marriage!

Guess my insecurity attack is over -- whew!


Brit-Man said...

I don't much like shopping anyway.

I think, yes, I'll find what I want quickly, then I think, it'll take ages, then it usually takes an amount of time somewhere in the middle.

Congrats on 17 years. That, (considering the low lifespan of some marriages in this modern world), is something to be proud of.

You've worked hard to look like you do, so you have every right to feel good about shopping for clothes.

GOOD LUCK, and enjoy your time in SF, you should be proud of everything you've done in life, and it's only what people like you deserve :-).


Eileen said...

Let's have 14% bodyfat, can outrun almost ALL of us and don't forget the new "girls".....I think you would look awesome in most anything.

Have a great sounds like fun. I would love a weekend sans kids....will you please come over and babysit?!?!?!

Anonymous said...

Congratulations on 17 years! What an awesome accomplishment. Hope you have a wonderful time this weekend.

Jen said...

Happy Anniversary!