Wednesday, May 09, 2007

Still here!

I don't know when the last time was that I took a week off from writing. (Guess I could check, but that would take away from writing, now wouldn't it?) Life's been really busy. Remember when I said I wasn't taking any new clients? Well, that changed, because some people who expressed an interest in training a long time ago, well, they are now coming back, which is a great thing. But that means I really have to have my systems in place. So any computer time this week has been spent working on what I think of as "infrastructure" -- all the stuff that helps you to stay organized and on track as you run a business.

My intention is to set aside some time and answer comments -- I save every single one -- but now is not that time. So let's talk fitness, ok?

At last week's weigh in, I was exactly the same weight as the week before, which just sucked and led to a 24 hour sugar festival. I KNOW in my mind that you can't lose weight every single week. I also know that weight fluctuates. But I was feeling rather adolescent -- I WANT TO BE LIGHTER AND IT'S NOT FAIR THAT I'M NOT BECAUSE I'M WORKING REALLY HARD, SO SCREW IT -- that was the overriding thought. Oh, and I'd gone to TWO movies and eaten a protein bar each time, while my companion(s) ate yummy stuff, and that my friends, should result in negative calories, don't you think?

Anyway, it's a new week and I'm back on track. In fact, I'm getting some feedback that I don't need to lose any more weight. Whaaaat???? I've needed to lose 5 (10? 15? 20?) pounds for my entire adult life practically. Plus I'm not at my dream weight yet -- you know, that magical number where life will be perfect .... ok, so I know that's not how it works, but I still really like my number. But I can see the vein that runs along the top of the bicep all the time now (even when I'm not lifting) and that kind of freaks me out. And I did take measurements. Here they are:

5'5.5" tall
135 pounds
36" bust
27" waist
36" hips
21" thighs

So maybe the reality is that I'm at a good weight for me? For some reason, I'm incredibly uncomfortable with that thought. Like it seriously makes me uneasy. In fact, I don't want to talk about that anymore, ok?

(This is the great thing about typing a monologue -- abrupt subject changes are just fine!)

On the workout front, I'm trying to get acclimated to the heat. So yesterday I did a 5 mile run/walk at 11:00 when it was in the mid-80s or so. I could tell I wasn't feeling all that energetic, but it only takes a few of those planned heat runs to get used to the warmer temperatures. I may be able to fit in another run later today or tomorrow -- we'll see.

Time to do Junior High pickup, so must run. Hugs to all friends -- stay healthy and know that you are appreciated!


Eileen said...

I'd say you are in an excellent place. Your measurements are a good bit smaller than mine, even though I weigh a few pounds less (today at least). What matters is how the clothes fit, not what the scale says, so what I want is YOUR numbers because you are likely two to three sizes smaller than I am (crazy how different it can be). I'd say you can relax a bit about it as you are habitually very active and healthy.

I have my "goal" weight set at 125, but I still don't know if that's going to be "right" if I add some muscle...maybe I should weigh more than that, maybe less...the numbers are just that...numbers. Are you comfortable in your own skin? I'd be if I was you!!!!!

Colette said...

Leslie, you DO NOT need to lose anymore look WONDERFUL! You should know that when you gain muscle, the scale will go up...that is what you want! I think that if you lose more weight, your body is going to rebell and may even look sick. Tim doesn't want an unhealthy skinny-minnie does he?? That vein in your arm is telling you you don't need to lose anymore stop trying and get the "number" out of your head!

Okay, enough lecture from me ;)

So, what movies did you see? Anything good? Please dish ;)

Hugs to you too! Have a wonderful day/week!

oldLobo said...

I don't know how you arrived at that "dream" weight, so I can't really be sure what losing that would achieve for you, but those stats sure don't look like numbers to complain about.

At this point, you are pretty fit so you might want to consider burning the calories through physical challenges, rather than dieting (the opposite advice would apply to someone who is not fit). Always pay attention to what you eat and avoid poor quality food, but don't make a big chore out of it.

Meghan said...

I'm curious about what your BF% is right now. Sounds like it's in the teens since you can see the vein on your bicep. Sounds like you are in a great place where you don't need to lose any more fat unless you want that super lean look. I personally want to get to a place where I maintain at 16% BF and around 130 lb.. I'm sure that would be that magical number for me that would make life better, lol. ;)

Glad to hear things are rolling right along with your business. :)

Brit-Man said...

Hay Leslie, could be muscle weight, but what you have to be is comfortable in yourself.

You might not feel tight enough, or athletic enough with your appearance.

No matter what someone says about your body, you live in it 24/7 so it has to feel right, unless feeling right is a size zero, then you get a problem, but I know you would never go there.

I know from what I've seen, and certainly from what you've done, that you have plenty of reasons to smile and be proud of yourself.

For a vibrant woman of 46 years young, you have achived and continue to achieve things, a lot of people 10 years younger, would struggle to believe possible in themselves.

You are someone that gives hope to the uncertain through your work, and you give inspiration to those who know you in any way, like I do.

Your're smart enough to know how your physical appearance translates into happiness, and you know enough, to make the you you believe possible to happen.

My personal thought is, you don't need to lose weight, but if you did, another 5-10lbs wouldn't make you rakish, although I think you could change some of the weight, so you'd look more like a figure athelte, and still 135.

You WILL find your own physical point, where you know you're as close to your ideal condition as it's possible to get, allowing for the fact physical perfection is almost certainly an impossbility, but the thought of making it, can help to take you to the closest reaslitic point.

So whatever you feel now, you'll make it translate into what you want to feel, and look like, and that CAN happen, and when you get there, the fight to remain there will be the new challenge, as reaching the end goal, doesn't mean you no longer have a goal, the goal just changes.

You are doing fantastically well, so keep going, and don't let anything get in the way of your mindset. You've got an amazing Heart and a driven attitude to yourself, that's made what you've achieved, and how you look now, real, and fantastic.

You're a wonderful individual, and your human qualities are worth a massive amount, so keep that belief in yourself and your Heart, and keep putting as much of yourself into this as you can, and the changes you want, will be "healthy", "fantastic", and 100% right for you, and physically eyecatching.

So don't worry misses, and keep telling yourself, that for a "wise young sage", at the "ripe young age" of 46, you're doing some incredible things, and it makes you even more of a multi-dimensional person, physically, emotionally, and mentally.

You can't have done or given more than you have, but you can continue to make more of what you want happen.

So don't worry or doubt anything. Keep going with the flow, and all WILL come good, with time and patience.

You're absolutely amazing Leslie, so don't forget what it means or is worth.

You always continue to inspire, impress and amaze me, and that's a wonderful thing to be able to do to people, so don't ever stop will you.

Take care Misses Amazing :-) :-).


Greg said...

Wow I won't compete with that last post. :o I'll just ask you this. Do you ever just feel like giving up on all this fitness nonsense? lol Sometimes I feel like getting a large pizza and just burying my face in it.

I'm just messin' with ya. Sounds like your getting your fitness equilibrium in order.